Home

The other day Tom said something that kind of made me think a little bit.  He said “This feels like home.  Everywhere else I lived didn’t feel like home like this does.”  Our home does feel like our home.  Sometimes where you live is just that, where you live.  There is no comfort no peace there, but our house has that and more.  It’s warm and inviting.  I love how our home is set up and decorated.  Granted some rooms have yet to be decorated like the dining room, but hey we’re a young couple.  Though I am working with the awful green in our kitchen.

There are a lot of things that go into making a home a home, and one of the most important things is the love that goes into it.  Maybe our home feels like home because we put love into decorating and being together whether it’s just the two of us or if we have friends or family over.  After searching for so long for a place to call our own and a place where we fit in, our home is  that place.  Sure there are still some things that we need to get, a few more things that will make our home “complete” as if we need more than ourselves.

There is a saying that says “home is where the heart is” and that is probably why my home feels like home.  Because when  you walk in you feel the warmth, the caring, the love that we put into everything we do from something as small as doing dishes to something as big as deciding what to paint the walls.  I will get pictures of the house put up within the next few days once Tom cleans  up his magic sorting :D.

Lessons From Rollerblading

So I have decided to try to learn how to roller blade with Tom’s help of course, and from time to time Sean’s.  There are some small minor things that I am learning while I roller blade, and not all of it is rollerblading related.  One of the things I learned is the amount of trust I have or need for Tom and Sean both, in different capacities.

While they both were holding my hand or side to help me keep my balance, at any point they could have let me go and well I would have ended up with a bruised backside.  But they didn’t  I needed, still need to trust them that they wouldn’t let me fall.  Other than learning to rollerblade, I need to trust Tom and my friends that they wouldn’t let me “fall” whatever the situation it may be.  Also if I did fall, they would be there to help me back up again.

Its like friends dont let friends fall alone.  haha.  Trust is an important thing in any relationship whether it be friendship, family, or romantic.  If you can’t trust the other person then what kind of relationship do you have?  It’s almost like a false relationship.  I mean how can you be friends with some or even say you love someone but not trust them?  As Tom helps me rollerblade I see how much we trust each other in something so simple.  I trust he won’t let me fall and he trusts that I won’t make him fall or bring him down with me :D.

Momma Thanks

This Sunday is Mother’s Day.  A day where we spend time telling mom just how wonderful she is.  Throughout the week I have been thinking about my mom and the things she has done for me, all the sacrifices she has made to help me make my dreams come true and help me become the woman that I am today.  I honestly wouldn’t be here without my mom.

My mom has been such a symbol of strength and God’s love all my life.  While we struggled sometimes, mom always made sure we had what we needed or wanted.  Without spoiling us of course, though I am sure some people would say otherwise.  My mom has been there through everything I dealt with no matter how big or how small.  She wiped every tear, probably changed every diaper, and helped mend every broken heart and so much more.

I try to show my mom thanks and how much I love her everyday and just like with Valentine’s Day I don’t really need to day to tell her that, but its still nice to have a day specially devoted to her and all mothers everywhere.  Moms should be thanked daily and appreciated I mean without our moms we literally wouldn’t be here.

So to my mom thank  you so much for everything you do.  Everything I do I try to make you proud and show you that you taught me everything I know and that you raised a good woman.  Thanks mom for everything you’ve done and sacrificed…I cannot say thank you enough.

Comfort Zone

I know I have talked about comfort zone a lot in the past and recently, but it is something that is somewhat important because it is a big deal for me.  I seem to be stuck in this comfort zone and find it hard to break free from it.  I know I’m not the only one.  Every day people struggle with trying to break free from their comfort zone, some get panic attacks with the thought of breaking out of that place of safety and comfort.

The past couple of months I have been doing some things to break free from that comfort zone that I have fought so hard to remain in for so many years.  This coming Sunday I am going to do something is way beyond my comfort zone and I admit I am terrified of it.  I am going to sing a solo at church.  This is something I have always been too scared to do because it put me far from that comfort zone.

The song I am going to sing say a lot.  It is about the woman who had enough faith that she believed if she just touched the hem of Jesus’ robe she would be healed of her ailment.  Its a beautiful song, and I am singing it at the end of the church service.  I know I am going to be nervous and I might mess up some of the words, but what is the worst that could happen aside from that?  Simply, nothing.  I just hope people wouldn’t be able to hear my voice shake or see my legs shaking as bad as they were when I was practicing.

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Being Cast Down

Last week I talked with another sub and the subject turned to faith. We talked about being cast down and what that meant. Being cast down is commonly thought of as being cast into Hell, but it isn't. When we try to understand the Bible we need to keep in mind the time period and culture the Bible was written in. During that time what was the most common profession? Being a shepherd. Many times the sheep would get cast upon their back and need to be lifted up by the shepherd. Hence being cast down.

When the Bible talks about being cast down it doesn't mean being cast into Hell, but being on our back and needing the help of our "shepherd" God, to take his hook and pull us out and place us back on our feet. There are times when we hit a rough patch, rocks in our path, and we stumble and fall on our backs and need God to lift us back up. Does that mean we are instantly cast into Hell? Didn't shepherds leave the flock to find just 1 lost sheep? To help 1 sheep who was cast upon his back, or did they just leave the sheep to perish? They tended to that one sheep, the helped them and lifted them up, and that's what God does for us as well. God doesn't leave us behind He pulls out his special God Shepherd's hook and lifts us up (yea its all gold and sprakly cause you know God likes sparkles). I think a lot of the times we don't realize that God is there to pick us back up, and we just continue to lie on our backs not making a sound. When a sheep is cast down it baas it is loud and noisy, yet we remain silent, we don't cry out to our shepherd. Why is that?

Thankfulness

Each week, or rather when I remeber, I do a blog on the things I am thankful for. I dont know if I explained why I really do this. I do it to help remind myself to not take things for granted to always be thankful for the things I have in life, including people.

Lately I have been having a hard emotional time and I am not really sure why. I know it is hard in Tom, and he feels helpless. We try hard to take care of each other, but there are times when nothing helps which is hard for us both. I love Tom with all my heart, and sometimes I am afraud if losing him. I am thankful to have him at my side even though I make it hard sometimes. I think I try to hard to be a good girlfriend.

I shouldnt worry, I know he loves me, anc I am thankful for that. There is so much with our relationship that I am thankful for. I cherish everything about Tom, and I want him to feel appreciated.