I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, a lot of contemplating over things. I will admit that this week depression has been really knocking me down. I have been doing okay with fighting it and dealing with it, but this week it has been really attacking me and knocking me down. Its starting to feel like I am failing.
I look at the things I have been through, so much heartache, pain, and struggle. I have had moments of happiness but for some reason those moments were taken away from me. It almost like I am not meant to be happy. That I am doomed to live in heartache and be alone...will I be the crazy cat lady with like 20 cats..okay maybe not that many but still a crazy cat lady in the least.
I cant seem to make anything work lately. Nothing. I look in the mirror and see nothing of worth. What do I have to offer? I feel like there is a void that I cannot seem to fill, i dont know really what would fill it either.
Can I make anyone happy if I can’t seem to make myself happy? Could Todd have been right that I am for some reason unmarriable? Why do I keep failing at even the simplest of things like making some of my easy dreams come true?
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