God has a funny way of turning things around for your life. For the past few weeks, almost a month I have been feeling somewhat worthless, disappointing to God and those around me. It was affecting my sleeping habits, eating habits, and the way my body functioned. It was getting to hard for me to be able to just do daily things because it all seemed pointless and not even worth the energy, then I didn't have energy to do anything. I didnt even want to go to church or pray. Nothing seemed to make sense or help, but I persevered. I prayed with Pastor, I asked for friends to pray for me and I talked about what was going on through this site and a few others. Even though it didn't seem like it helped, I still had faith that God would take care of me, the he would help through this bout of depression. I know there will be other times when I have it, there will be times when I struggle, but I know that God will be there for me and he is there for you too.
We all go through our bouts of depression and hardships and God finds ways of turning it around. Within the past two days I got two job offers and it may not seem much, but I also got a date with a sweet gentleman. I took the job offers as GOd's little way of saying he will take care of me, I just have to be patient sometimes and keep holding onto my faith the way I did when I had the cancer. Depression is one of those things that if we dont have some sliver of hope and faith it can tear us down and destroy us, and I think the way we make it through is because God is holding us up. I mean there were times when I didn't feel like God was present in my life, but looking on things and looking at how they were in the past and now, then I see God has been there, God is still there and God will always be there.
Sometimes we don't feel like God is tehre in our lives, but he is there and we need to try harder to feel his presence. I know how hard that sounds, and I know I need to take my own advice, but there are things we can do to feel God's presence, instead of reading a trashy novel, read Purpose Driven Life, or Facing Your Giants. Instead of listening to Saliva, listen to Skillet. Turn secular things into Christian things and sometimes you will feel God's presence more. And even if it all seems futile, keep holding onto the faith that God is there and he will see you through.
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Mar 10, 2009
May 29, 2008
Hardships
Throughout life we go through many different hardships. Some of us fight cancer, heart problems, AIDS, and other health issues, others battle depression, oppression, self-guilt, and many other things. No matter who we are, we deal with some sort of hardship throughout our lives. Many hardships come in twos like health problems and depression. Depression likes to follow a lot of things around and find ways to dig it's grimmy little hands into your mind.
No matter the hardship God is there with us. He's there carrying us, we need to trust that and rely on him for that. Job 12:22 tells us He floods the darkness with light, he brings light to the deepest gloom. When we place all of our focus on God, the depressive thoughts seem less depressive, but I know how hard it is to put all focus on God when your mind is running through so many different things, some things that you know aren't true. Depression can say that asking for prayer is seeking attention, when we know in reality it's not. Prayer is a form of support and a way we all communicate with God. The Bible also says "when two or more are gathered." No matter how we feel prayer is one of the best things we can do. But as stated sometimes asking for prayer can be difficult in a depressive/oppressive state. So what do we do then?
Read our Bibles; confide in our support whether it be friends family, spouse. For me; my biggest confidant are Todd and Donya, though I admit when going through the cancer I didn't tell Donya everything; I didn't know Todd then, but I think I would tell him things I felt and not worry about his thoughts. The people we confide in can be the ones who can see the light through our gloom and remind of God's love and presence. They could read us scripture, talk to us, pray with us, and simply care. I know just knowing someone cared meant the world to me.
God is there for us as much, no more than our friends and family are. God is there to lift us up on wings of eagles, to cast light into our darkness, and take away all the feelings we may have, we just need to ask and have faith. We also need to realize that when we ask, the answer may not come right away, but in time: God's time. In depression though, his time may feel too long, and unfair. But there is always a reason why God allows us to go through something. Always a good to come out of the good. A ministry that could come from health issues, depression/oppression and everything else we deal with. Cling to knowing that God uses every situation for his will; no matter how good or how bad it is.
No matter the hardship God is there with us. He's there carrying us, we need to trust that and rely on him for that. Job 12:22 tells us He floods the darkness with light, he brings light to the deepest gloom. When we place all of our focus on God, the depressive thoughts seem less depressive, but I know how hard it is to put all focus on God when your mind is running through so many different things, some things that you know aren't true. Depression can say that asking for prayer is seeking attention, when we know in reality it's not. Prayer is a form of support and a way we all communicate with God. The Bible also says "when two or more are gathered." No matter how we feel prayer is one of the best things we can do. But as stated sometimes asking for prayer can be difficult in a depressive/oppressive state. So what do we do then?
Read our Bibles; confide in our support whether it be friends family, spouse. For me; my biggest confidant are Todd and Donya, though I admit when going through the cancer I didn't tell Donya everything; I didn't know Todd then, but I think I would tell him things I felt and not worry about his thoughts. The people we confide in can be the ones who can see the light through our gloom and remind of God's love and presence. They could read us scripture, talk to us, pray with us, and simply care. I know just knowing someone cared meant the world to me.
God is there for us as much, no more than our friends and family are. God is there to lift us up on wings of eagles, to cast light into our darkness, and take away all the feelings we may have, we just need to ask and have faith. We also need to realize that when we ask, the answer may not come right away, but in time: God's time. In depression though, his time may feel too long, and unfair. But there is always a reason why God allows us to go through something. Always a good to come out of the good. A ministry that could come from health issues, depression/oppression and everything else we deal with. Cling to knowing that God uses every situation for his will; no matter how good or how bad it is.
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