Friendships

Friendships are something that helps make the world better. It's a lonely place without friends. Some mean the world to us, and others are just acquaintances. We all have both types of friends. Certain friends change our lives and make the world of a difference.

Friends can either be in our lives for a moment or for a lifetime, and I like to thing there are a few people in my life that will last a lifetime, and even fewer who have made quite a difference. Each friend has a special place in my heart and I love them all dearly and cherish them like treasures from God. Each of my friends have taught me something different not only about myself, or my way of thinking but about the world around and what not only I am capable of but what they could be capable of even if they don't see it.

There is a friend who has made a world of difference in such a short time. He has shown me many different things and we have shared so much even though we have never actually met. I see wonderous things within my friend. I see compassion, strength, desire, and so much more even if he may not see them. He is capable of so much more than what he gives himself credit for. I can see the things he can do and be, but he doesn't see them within himself, and I'm unsure of how to be able to help him see the wonderful things he can accomplish.

There are great things about Terry and I hope he can see them soon and all of his capabilities and everything he can accomplish no matter what. Sadly though it looks as though I may be losing my friend due to various different circumstances, and I know if I do, I will have a great void in my life. He is greatly important to me and I want to keep the friendship going and learn all he can teach me, and help he see everything that he is not only to me, but to the others in his life.

Love

I have been known to contemplate whether or not true love can exist. Or rather unconditional love. Is there such a thing as loving someone to the point where there is nothing you wouldn't do for said person or anything that would make you fall out of love with short of distrust like cheating?

We've all heard the fairy tales of some princess being rescued by some prince who instantly fell in love with her simply by seeing her. Does something like that really honestly exist? Do people fall in love at first sight or is it something that develops over time? Can we honestly see someone as simply perfect no matter how many flaws they have or in time do we get annoyed with those flaws to the point were the relationship is doomed?

I honestly wasn't sure of the answers to those questions until about a month ago. Last year I dealt with rough things. I was diagnosed with cancer, two of my favorite uncles passed away one from complications from a stroke and the other to cancer. A week after my beloved Uncle Larry died from cancer, I was told I was cancer free. That was a rough few months. Just before Christmas I prayed to God, asking him to make the new special and full of happiness.

About a month ago I met a wonderful man. I didn't expect to fall in love with him as soon as we met. We had talked for a few weeks on yahoo messanger as we met on myspace. We decided to meet in person and it was like magic. I felt like I was in a fairy tale. Honestly I couldn't ask for a better man. He is strong in his faith, strong in spirit and has dealt with some rough situations in his own life. We appreciate each other like nothing else and I cannot see myself not loving him as much as I do. I can't see anything that would make me not love him. I do know he has his flaws, but flaws are what makes up who he is, and I love him for them as well. I see him as perfect through h is flaws. Isn't that ultimately how God wants us to love each other?

I never thought someone could mean so much to me in such a short time as Todd means to me. I enjoy all of our discussions no matter how short or long they may be. I relish and appreciate anytime that I may have with him, for we are limited on time together. The respect he has not just me but those around him is astounding, I have never met a more respectful person. He is such a gentleman and does things in the traditional sense like I do.

I used to think that my standards for a partner were too high, but now I know they weren't. I was just looking for the perfect man for me, and honestly I have found him. Someone once told me to never settle, and I didn't and I am so happy that I never settled for less than what I deserve. Todd is everything I deserve and more. There are aspects of him that I needed that I didn't know I needed. God brought us together at the perfect time in both of our lives. I find myself always telling him that I love him because I can't say it enough.

Unconditional love does exist, you just need to not settle for anything less simply because you don't think it is possible. Everything that I have seen and dreamed of does exist and I know have. I will not take Todd or his love for granted, and I know anytime I look into his eyes all I will see is love. When he says he loves me I know it's honest and true. I have nothing to fear when it comes to him, and he has nothing to fear when it comes to me.

I asked God for happiness and I got happiness like I could never imagine.